By Request...

Helloo bloggers! I have returned to my blog by the request of a good friend. That's right, it didn't take much to get me back here. I've given up facebook, and marriage has obviously led to a change in my social life, so I really needed somewhere to connect. with. people. I know, I know, the internet is one laaaame sort of connection. Its better (as Im learning from artistotle) to be in close proximity with friends, but that isn't a luxury I have right now. I've got my husband, my baby, and my sisters. I don't spend much time with other people because I'm very focused on school and homemaking- both worthy goals in my opinion. However, it has left a gap in me, and I shall attempt to fill it by blogging. 

Speaking of blogging, my last post was a song I wrote, you should check it out... please? hah

So, Life, where am I? What to share? Well, Im married! Its the coolest most intense and rewarding experience! It has its benefits and sacrifices, but it is incredbile to notice how it differs from my marriage to DW. I have realised that I had a pretty bad attitude back then, as a wife, and I feel kind of sorry for that. It has taught me, though, how to have a good attitude now. Marriage isn't easy guys, no rose coloured glasses here, it is a challenge, but I am totally up for that! Trying to parent lil Nod is probably our biggest challenge (besides trying to connect with the teenagers). We come from different backgrounds and have been parenting in different ways, so we spend a lot of time trying to find our common ground. I've learned to just sit back and let he and Brosie carry on, and then give suggestions later when she is tucked in for the night. I've learned that when something bothers me, I need to evaluate why it does, write in my journal a bit, think of my blessings, read the scriptures, pray for guidance, and then share my discoveries openly with my amazing husband. 

And let me tell you, he is AMAZING! I have never been more loved (by a mortal hah)! He is always willing to discuss things, to see my point of view, to hold me while I cry, to try new things. Its just so cool! I love it when we face a problem and he asks if we can say a prayer about it, or if I want a blessing! What a stark contrast to what I faced before! Having someone on the same spiritual level in a marriage is a great blessing that I will not take for granted. I also love that he understands where I come from, he has been married too, he has experienced similar experiences and has empathy. I also love all the silly things (that sometimes I also do not love. hah)... like the way he keeps the house so clean all the time, the way he can outbake or outcook me any day, the way he corrects my grammar (which means he can also edit a paper... hoorah). And, well, what is better than snuggling up at night with the love of my life, the most handsome man Ive ever seen? Nothing really. We are an incredible match, and we often converse about how we wish everyone else could have the same happiness. Honestly, we even wish it for DW, because it is life-changing. Heavenly Father loves us, and we know it by the opportunity he has given us to be together. Reading this you may think we are just flighty honey-mooners, but let me tell you its quite the opposite. We go through more difficult challenges on a weekly basis than your average new couple does in a month- we have kids! But we plan on always being as lovey as we are now- no fighting, no mean voices, talking over everything, being understanding and of course, kissing after every prayer. This man is my hero, let me tell ya. My hero.

Now that Ive rambled on for long enough about that... what else does life mean for me now? Well the same old- school school school. Im drowning in work right now and it probably wont let up until Dec 6th. Which is affected by Nod being sick today, and family obligations, and meals to prepare, and grocery shopping to do, and suprise visits from people I just cant turn away (SIL from Australia!!)... and of course by the fact that I decided to blog today instead of write my essay, so thats almost an hour I could have used haha... but Ive got about 1.5 hrs before class starts again, so Im back to it!

XO
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Love Will Find YOu Out (song- take 2!)

Enjoy! Share! Comment! :)

A Song!!

Lets see if this even works!!

My Journey

The step-girls have been here for almost two weeks now, and they seem to be warming up. Im not going to lie, when they got here I got cold feet! Seeing them in person was a lot different than talking about them and I wondered if I could (or even wanted to) take this challenge on. 

I began to doubt everything, all the impressions I'd received, my feelings for Pete, and his person (because we both act a little differently with the girls around). I really dove into my scriptures and begged the Lord to give me further acknowledgment. Saturday night I began a fast for just that. On Sunday morning I told the Lord precisely what my concerns were, what I felt uneasy about. Without prior knowledge of my prayer (however knowing I had cold feet) Pete brought up most of my concerns throughout the day. At that moment I felt that he had been inspired to answer my prayer, and I became a lot more positive because he was able to quell my fears. We had been talking about this for days, and each day I felt more confident that I making a good choice, during each conversation I felt a spirit of peace. I took Monday 'off', I just needed to regroup and make sure I could still feel peace without Pete around. I asked my institute teacher for some doctrinal answers regarding marriage. He directed me to some great resources and we had a wonderful discussion. I learned that Heavenly Father leaves us to make our own choices within the guidelines of commandments. We are supposed to make a decision, and then go to him for confirmation. I learned that in my situation I will not be punished for marrying him cause he isnt the 'wrong' guy for me, and I also will not be punished for not marrying him because he isnt the only 'right' guy. Heavenly Father has made it clear to me what the benefits and sacrifices of marriage are. There are some general guidelines for the kind of person to marry (reliable, diligent, spiritual etc), and beyond that we get to choose. I have chosen someone who I can communicate openly and honestly with. I have chosen someone who is humble enough to turn to the Lord for answers, humble enough to accept correction well. I have chosen someone who is a magnificent father, even to teenagers who disrespect him, and even to a toddler who isnt his. I have chosen someone who loves me deeply, respects me, and treats me as a daughter of God. I have chosen someone whom I love deeply, whom I want to have for time and all eternity. So, I read some things, then I told the Lord my plan. I told the Lord why I want to marry Pete, and asked for His divine approval. It came. A sweet calming assurance, and a burning in my heart. I have come to love those teenagers, and I am willing and ready to become their stepmother/friend. If anxty teens is the worse Pete and I will ever deal with then we are set! Hah. I feel so confident knowing that it is my choice, and that the Lord approves! I made a good choice, a wonderful choice! Anyways, on Tuesday I continued to feel a growing surge of confidence. Pete's sister came down with my wedding dress and I was so elated to realize that I will be marrying him so soon in such a beautiful gown! Then on Wednesday I went to the temple. While there I was overwhelmed with feeling. It was the same strong feeling I have experienced on many occasions since meeting Pete. The same feeling I had during our important late night discussions, the same feeling as when he told me he loved me, the same feeling I had when I fasted about marrying him (twice), the same feeling I had when he proposed, and the same feeling I had when we attended the temple together. I couldnt stop beaming. I knew we would be married in that very temple very soon. I prayed while I was there for our sealing approval to come in the mail. Up until then I had been praying that it wouldnt come because I was unsure. Now here is the miracle... I only started praying for those papers on Tuesday, and then Wednesday at the temple, and then that night I realised that if I really wanted them to come I should mention in in *every* prayer. So I prayed over dinner that we would have the letter very soon (even though I had been told it would be another month). I felt very confident that because I had my answer, the Lord could verify the answer and send the papers sooner. I had told my Mother and my best friend Dare that only days before... and ... then... Gramma called and asked Pete to check the mail, I was on my way out and we decided to go together. He reached in the first box, turned to look at me with this HUGE grin on his face. I told him to stop teasing me. While he checked the other box I convinced myself that he was pulling my leg. He came back into the car and there it was! I picked up the beautiful envelope (I'm not exagerating, It wasnt white, or brown, but this beautiful and regal looking beige) from Salt Lake City and squealed!! He took the envelope and carefully opened the side, took out an equally beautiful paper. He scanned it quickly for a confirmation, then turned and asked "Elizabeth Thompson, Will you Marry me July 7th?" I said "yes! yes!", kissed him, and took a turn to look at the letter. We cried as we read it, then said a prayer of thanks, showed Brosie (in the back seat) what all the commotion was for, and admired the signatures of Presidents Thomas S Monson, Dieter F uchtdorf, and Henry B Eyring. I need no further confirmation. I know, Pete knows, The presidency of the church know, and our Father in Heaven knows that this eternal marriage will be the most wonderful and best event of our lives. This union is sanctioned by God. And, equally importantly I believe, it is sanctioned by us. This morning Pete called to book the temple and then texted me saying "Will you marry me at 10am on July 7th?". So, one month from today we will make this decision an eternal one and seal our lives and souls together forever. The only other day I look forward to as much as this is when Nod can join us in the temple also (waiting on permission from D). 

You may wonder why I went into so much personal detail about my doubts, but I want to help teach others through my experiences. I also want you all to see the wonderful timing, the miracle! The Lord knew exactly when we needed to receive that letter. He is so good to us. Never forget that, because he is just as good to you. Prayer is defined as the method in which we ascertain blessings Heavenly Father is already willing to give us but that are dependent upon our asking for them.I love prayer.

Youre ALL invited to out luncheon and/or Open House. Invite will be posted later. 

XO

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Post Mothers day- A Celine Dione type Tribute to the woman who didnt kill me

For all those times you tucked me in,
 for all those kisses on my lips,
for all the pain in birthing me
for all the stretch marks that you see
For every dream you made come true
and the ways I repaid you
I'll be forever shamed my mother
youre the one who held me up
until I chose to fall
youre the one who saw me through
through it all

You were my  target when you were weak
when I was mad i would refuse to speak
I rolled my eyes when you  talked to me
stole the icecream when you couldnt see
shuddered at your arm when your hug reached
and piled my dishes in your sink
I ever will be shamed
but you still loved me


You gave me wings so I could fly
Now Ive got some teens, make me wanna cry
when I lose faith
I just remember me
and know no star is out of reach
you could deal with me, hormones and all
Maybe I can stepmom after all
Im grateful for each glare they give me
maybe I dont know that much, but I know this much is true
I deserve anxsty teens
for what I did to you


You were my  target, I thought you weak
sometimes I yelled or just refused to speak
I rolled my eyes when you  talked to me
stole out at night when you couldnt see
Ticked you off during every speech
and talked about you like you wouldnt believe
I really do deserve
the teens in that backseat

Settled

Like the pulp in the bottom of a delicious glass of orange juice, Brosie and I are settled ;)
The boxes Pete brought are mostly unpacked (though the cupboards could use organizing), the computer is *finally* set up, Brosie is sleeping better, Im making dinner like I have have before, the house is always nice and clean, and school... well, thats alright. Ive made one friend, and I already know one other person, so Im okay. We have a good youtube going and Im happy to be here. mostly. I Miss my young women, thats for hecka sure! Im nervous for the Girls to get here this weekend (The step-daughters to be). Im also excited! Imagine if they end up being like Kayzia and Zoie and Amanda and and and!!! Oh man, make.my.life. But what if they are more like cinderella's evil stepsisters? What if they think Im evil? Oh Boy. Good thing I really love this man. Anyways, must run, its late... this grammar is terrible I might add.

Love!
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Wedding?

So. Precursor for those who wont necessarily understand the logistics. Pete and I have chosen to be married in the Cardston Temple in a special ceremony that seals our family together for time and all eternity. We are very excited about this, and honestly its the greatest part about the whole wedding day. Sometimes I joke and say all I need is Pete and a dress, both of which I have. Ive still been making reception plans, booked a photographer and videographer, looked at flowers and cakes and bridesmaids dresses... luckily the only thing Ive put money towards is rings and my dress, because the date we had planned is July 7th... two months from today. BUT--Yesterday, Pete met with the stake president about arrangements for the sealing, and because we have a special situation (having been married before) we need special approval and its actually going to take another two months to get it. Which is okay, I dont mind if we get married July 7th or 15th or 29th, Im just glad we are getting married! on the other hand.... I really do want a reception, but from the looks of it, we will be planning that *last* minute... if at all. Likely we will just get married and send out an invitation later to an open house or something... so, Im just a bit sad about it... sad we took engagement pics that wont be sent out on invitations, sad I bought a very expensive dress that only Pete and I and our families will see (likely we wont be able to book a photographer last minute so Im pretty bummed about that)... and of course Im sad that my very very bestest friend already booked her ticket (at my request!! EEP!)...

so, this is the official announcement that we have no wedding date... but will get married eventually... haha
and getting married in the temple is worth it all :D

Especially to Pete :)