Our family

Our family

Friday, May 25, 2012

Post Mothers day- A Celine Dione type Tribute to the woman who didnt kill me

For all those times you tucked me in,
 for all those kisses on my lips,
for all the pain in birthing me
for all the stretch marks that you see
For every dream you made come true
and the ways I repaid you
I'll be forever shamed my mother
youre the one who held me up
until I chose to fall
youre the one who saw me through
through it all

You were my  target when you were weak
when I was mad i would refuse to speak
I rolled my eyes when you  talked to me
stole the icecream when you couldnt see
shuddered at your arm when your hug reached
and piled my dishes in your sink
I ever will be shamed
but you still loved me

You gave me wings so I could fly
Now Ive got some teens, make me wanna cry
when I lose faith
I just remember me
and know no star is out of reach
you could deal with me, hormones and all
Maybe I can stepmom after all
Im grateful for each glare they give me
maybe I dont know that much, but I know this much is true
I deserve anxsty teens
for what I did to you

You were my  target, I thought you weak
sometimes I yelled or just refused to speak
I rolled my eyes when you  talked to me
stole out at night when you couldnt see
Ticked you off during every speech
and talked about you like you wouldnt believe
I really do deserve
the teens in that backseat

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


Like the pulp in the bottom of a delicious glass of orange juice, Brosie and I are settled ;)
The boxes Pete brought are mostly unpacked (though the cupboards could use organizing), the computer is *finally* set up, Brosie is sleeping better, Im making dinner like I have have before, the house is always nice and clean, and school... well, thats alright. Ive made one friend, and I already know one other person, so Im okay. We have a good youtube going and Im happy to be here. mostly. I Miss my young women, thats for hecka sure! Im nervous for the Girls to get here this weekend (The step-daughters to be). Im also excited! Imagine if they end up being like Kayzia and Zoie and Amanda and and and!!! Oh man, make.my.life. But what if they are more like cinderella's evil stepsisters? What if they think Im evil? Oh Boy. Good thing I really love this man. Anyways, must run, its late... this grammar is terrible I might add.


Monday, May 7, 2012


So. Precursor for those who wont necessarily understand the logistics. Pete and I have chosen to be married in the Cardston Temple in a special ceremony that seals our family together for time and all eternity. We are very excited about this, and honestly its the greatest part about the whole wedding day. Sometimes I joke and say all I need is Pete and a dress, both of which I have. Ive still been making reception plans, booked a photographer and videographer, looked at flowers and cakes and bridesmaids dresses... luckily the only thing Ive put money towards is rings and my dress, because the date we had planned is July 7th... two months from today. BUT--Yesterday, Pete met with the stake president about arrangements for the sealing, and because we have a special situation (having been married before) we need special approval and its actually going to take another two months to get it. Which is okay, I dont mind if we get married July 7th or 15th or 29th, Im just glad we are getting married! on the other hand.... I really do want a reception, but from the looks of it, we will be planning that *last* minute... if at all. Likely we will just get married and send out an invitation later to an open house or something... so, Im just a bit sad about it... sad we took engagement pics that wont be sent out on invitations, sad I bought a very expensive dress that only Pete and I and our families will see (likely we wont be able to book a photographer last minute so Im pretty bummed about that)... and of course Im sad that my very very bestest friend already booked her ticket (at my request!! EEP!)...

so, this is the official announcement that we have no wedding date... but will get married eventually... haha
and getting married in the temple is worth it all :D

Especially to Pete :)